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cozylittleartblog · 9 months ago

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400% sure he would love steven universe

#trigun #trigun 98 #doodles #art #comic #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #steven universe #anime #my first contribution is an illustration that took me like a whole week to get through #my second contribution is a silly i was up till 6 am for #as god intended o7 #hes so pathetic and sad i wanna shake him #^ every character i can say that about is my favorite character in the whole media hands down #we all cried during the bismuth episode dont say you didn't #EDIT IF YOU SEE THIS POST GO LOOK AT MY OTHER TRIGUN FANART FROM A WEEK AG O TOO PLS PLS PLS PLS P #edit 2 - EDITED WW's SKINTONE!!! the color reference i used made him look a lot paler than he's supposed to be. apologies!#i am so glad someone pointed that out before i put my trigun charms into production. i edited the charm too to be more tan #if i put whitewashed wolfwood keychains into production i would have SCREAMED

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naamahdarling · 2 months ago

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You know what? You know what I think?

I think that if we lived as we were meant to, in larger intimate ("extended family") groups and with more shared labor and time to do it (UBI NOW) people like me would not feel so useless and burdensome because there would be people around to help and to do what neurodivergent people can't while making valuable space for the neurodivergent to do what they ARE good at.

The way we live right now, all right, the way we live right now forces units of two adults to be able to do EVERYTHING or PAY to have someone come do it for them. I have to do the housework. I have to do it! But I am having to do a million different things and most of them I am not good at. I suck at them.

I wouldn't feel like shit, okay, if I had more than one other person around who was not a child and who could do the things I can't, like do the yard and cook and do repairs and basic maintenance; and someone else to split everything else that I like but is too much for me. It would free me to do what I am good at and enjoy. Cleaning, as in the sink and toilet, the windows, the blinds. Taking out trash. Folding, hanging, and sorting laundry.

But because all the shit I can do often relies on other shit being done first, and I can't do or have trouble doing those things, the shit I can do often can't be done. And even the shit I can do, I can't do ALL of it. So I can't keep up, and things get very bad.

We aren't meant to live like this. We are not meant to live like this.

That thought hurts so much because being able to flee the birth family is integral to survival for so many people. I'm so afraid that living in larger family groups would create more opportunities for, say, queer kids to be isolated, rejected, bullied, and abused. But if we gave people enough money to survive, and stopped considering children the property of their parents with no system in place to help them escape bad situations except a system that is often just as bad, just different.

I'm aware that communes and collectives aren't all that successful and are kind of a joke. I don't mean that. I mean a fundamental shift to multigenerational families where taking in "strays" (which my family did) is also normalized so people escaping abuse into existing households was accepted, with these families centered in maybe a couple of different larger residences so not everyone has to buy and maintain their own fucking washing machine and vacuum cleaner, and so people can benefit from large group meals that yield leftovers, and so child and elder care can also be centralized.

Then disabled people and the neurodivergent and sick and injured people, and pregnant people, and grieving people, would not have to either labor through all those stressors or consign themselves to living off an unlivable pittance or being put under legal guardianship.

I'm not saying anything new. People live like this in other parts of the world and maybe it sucks and I am wrong. But I'm just really mad right now because I can either do laundry or clean the sink but not both, and I really think we could improve society somewhat by making it so I did not have to choose one without sacrificing the other.

#im feverish feeling (not a real fever just malaise that i have no other way to describe) from the IBS (which can affect you like that #)#and i don't actually want to do ANYTHING #i would have to even living with others but it would be easier #at the very least i wouldn't have had to clean the microwave earlier which is hard because my arms are like the size of a meerkat's #and i can only reach the back with my fingertips #where is my BF in all this?#WORKING FULL TIME WITH BACK PAIN #yes i AM going to want him to have to do as little as possible when he comes home #he's neurodivergent too and struggles with the same shit #it's all a mess #we are doing way better i didn't realize how deep a drain three very sick cats were #but there's still only two of us #if you are disabled physically OR MENTALLY you should at least get in-home household help once a week or so #there's places that do that but the limitations are usually severe and always rule me out #because im not single im not an elder im not a veteran and im not physically disabled #if we have to ration that sort of thing i can see how on the whole it is more caring to allocate those resources to for example elders #but the fact that i celebrate what help there is doesn't mean i don't get mad that more people can't access it #is2g if i was functional enough snd physically sound enough i would start a charity that did intervention cleaning for people like us #who have fallen behind and can't catch up but can MAINTAIN #and who helped people clean for a few months during and after an illness pregnancy trauma major loss etc. so they could stay on their feet

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essektheylyss · 5 months ago

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I have to wonder about the order of the arrival of the gods' avatars in Exandria, in particular Ayden. Because he's so young. He feels older than his years, but he also feels young in the sense that he is still experiencing the world—he intervenes as often as he is able and is not shy about ending with the small community that they are soon leaving, he is most affected by suffering and injustice. There is a pity borne of his divine point of view, yes, but even comparing him to Trist, who has obviously embraced the mortal world and ingrained herself within it, or S.I.L.A.H.A., who has gone out of his way to experience the wonders of the city that has driven them to such drastic lengths but who seems distantly resigned to its destruction, Ayden feels impressed upon by the circumstances of the world in a way that is much more youthful.

It seems that there was some amount of plan around who arrived when, but it wasn't all that specific beyond Ioun scouting ahead in Aeor, and was otherwise based on their own decision or whim. Why did Pelor wait so long to go? Had he hoped that perhaps the issue would be resolved before it became necessary—before the light of Exandria was sequestered away in a mortal form? Was he wary of growing too used to being mortal, to becoming attached to his life even beyond Trist, who leaves her family ruefully but resolutely all the same?

Ayden walks as though he cannot help but let the world touch him, but he doesn't seem to have companions of his own, instead traveling with Trist's family. They have left their home recently enough that Trist is still wearing her husband's overcoat rather than her own, and he goes without, suggesting that they have fled recently and with haste. In contrast, Ayden makes no mention of parents or a family, though he is young enough that he should still be with them. In this time of war, it is simple to wonder if they've been killed in its path, perhaps before Ayden was aware of the hand he'd had in its making. He carries little, and the shield he has seems to be—at least looks—worn and broken. It's quite likely that it too was created in response to this war, as much as Ayden himself. He looks to his sister and her mercy like a north star.

He feels both new to and impressed upon by the world, and I have to wonder how forcefully he is holding himself apart from its suffering, even as he intervenes often enough that he risks giving himself and his family away—not because he is afraid to experience it, but because he already has. He understands that he is fighting for this world even as he and his family is the cause of its strife. Aeor may offer the gods the mechanism by which to separate themselves from the world they've shaped, but I wonder if having the perspective of Ayden will give Pelor the resolve and the reason to choose it.

#listen as a person who has thought a LOT about anamnesis i am just. AUGH.#tell me about what THAT adolescence was like gdi #like CHRIST #critical role #cr spoilers #ayden #cr downfall #also for the record it is SO cruel and unusual for cr to air this during my most off the grid week of the whole year. fucked up #had to copy this into notes just in case Tumblr ate it while i tried to post #cr meta

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mintypsii · 6 months ago

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guys i love them i promise i just have the urge to put them through the grinder sometimes

umm on the bright side here's the alternate good ending version lol!!!!!

#haiii ^_^#i didnt know whether to make a seperate post for the good ending one but it wouldve been weird so im just adding it onto here lol #op #one piece #sanji #usopp #god usopp #black leg sanji #vinsmoke sanji #sanuso #usosan #tw blood #tw injury #angst #comic #my art #mintart #ok originally i was gonna use every color but red for the first two pages and only make the butterfly red then make the last page red too #cuz yaaayyy symbolism whatever cringe and then i scrapped it cuz i love working with pink and i was nawt about to figure out #a whole new colour palette during finals week. also i have 5 minutes before class so im speed typing this LOL #anygays thanks lars for the usopp dies brainrot i HATE YOU #he's partly responsible for this actually #i hate how the colours of the last page turned out uurgghghhh im not fixing it tho bye #i like the rest of it tho >_<#i love writing dialogue but silent comics r pretty fun too #ive been doing a couple of those lately and theyve been helping me with gesture and expression practice #lol i love drawing sanji pathetic and in love #i love drawing usopp in general he's my favorite to draw ever im so glad he exists #JUST NOTICED THE LESBIAN COLOUR PALETTE UHHH NOT INTENTIONAL or maybe it could be yuri who knows. they r so very gender #i will draw sanuso yuri soon tho TRUST!!!!!!!!!

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i-may-be-an-emu · 10 days ago

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The way that Tom looks at them heals something in me that I didn’t know was so broken. Or something, idk.

#I’m convinced he’s the sweetest man alive #Like #look at his lil face #!!!!!!!!!??????#To clearly have so much love and joy and admiration and humour in one’s gaze-#tom mayo #shoot from the hip #also just the way that people describe him and what I’ve heard of peoples experiences meeting him #Makes me wanna sob /pos #anyway #I’ve had a really busy and difficult week (it’s probably been more than a week let’s be real) and idk #These guys make all that better #And Tom like he just 😭 you can see the genuine love and care radiating from him #Like obviously all of sfth are amazing and wonderful people too #But like #you know what I mean #anyway :)#Tom :)#In that last one Luke chose him to marry when they were all asked “snog marry kill” during a qna #His whole face lit up #Like 😭😭😭#friends who you can say you’d marry!?!!!!??#😭😭👍#I’m so normal #I wanna meet them all so bad #Sfth screenshots

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badly-drawn-doflamingo · 26 days ago

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Where did the Doflamingo does cocaine thing come from, is it just fanon?

Have you ever seen Donquixote Doflamingo?

Mf snorts Flintstone vitamins just to feel something. He’s had 2 nose jobs and an entire scalp transplant. He can’t smell anything anymore so he uses Diamante as a good judge of “is this too strong to use as cologne.”

It always is.

#during a ‘vote me again for king’ event #which By the way #was already rigged but that’s beside the point #he killed a baby from the smell of his cologne alone #was a whole week long issue #one piece #donquixote doflamingo #ask dolfy #ask box #doffy

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canisalbus · 1 year ago

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Look, I know it's supposed to end badly. But I need to admit that in my head, they declared a mutual "fuck this shit" to the world and society. Packed all the stuff they could one late night and escaped to a remote open plain in the middle of some thick woods where they spent the rest of their lives healing and living freely in nature.

I've been having a lot of intense feelings about them as well. The tragical elements are so baked in to their story and setting, it's hard to imagine a happy ending for them. But every now and then I find myself thinking of scenarios and AUs where they both live and grow old together. For coping purposes, I suppose.

#for real though I've had several crying sessions over them during the past couple of weeks I'm not kidding #that's how you know you've perhaps gotten a little too emotionally invested in your characters #two entirely fictional dog men whose fates I have complete control over have reduced me to shambles #the unfortunate truth is that from a storytelling point the whole thing works better as a tragedy #the sadness makes the happy moments more significant and the happy moments feel bittersweet because of the sadness #for all intents and purposes they're classic star-crossed lovers #neither of them have done anything to justify such a wretched end though and I just want good things for them #I think I might have to come up with an alternate ending where Machete has the sense and chance to resign before it's too late #and move to Florence to be closer to Vasco #or maybe they both go back to Venice where they originally met that might be nice #maybe not realistic but it'd be nice #answered #dragonfoxgirl

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rosekasa · 1 month ago

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there is something so. intensely frustrating about feeling incapable of showing up for people the way that they want you to

#i wish people understood that it's so hard to be present in their lives and that closeness for me isnt about frequency of contact #but how open we feel during that contact #my brain is such a difficult place to live in it is so loud and so busy all the time #24 hours a day is a constant monologue and argument with myself for everything and it means that i just dont have the capacity to talk to #others most of the time #and like. i know this is so unreasonable. obviously we have to be present in the lives of people that care for us #but it just feels like every day i have to like. get on a stage and perform to every person in my life that cares about me so i can meet the #criteria of being a Good Friend or Good Girlfriend or Good Fan Artist or Good Mutual or Good Server Member #i feel like it is such a blessing to be seen by others as someone to expect things from #but as more people have started to love me it feels like i have to 'go out and perform' more and more and i am very exhausted #i wish i was someone that was easy to love and care for in the way that i am. and i dont mean that self deprecatingly it's just #i know im very hard to care about and love. because i disappear all the time and come back in a big flurry as soon as i get the energy back #and im just feeling it a Lot More lately because im starting to think this isnt going to be a short term thing i have to do before i start #feeling comfortable with a person #this is going to be my whole life #if i get married im going to have to 'go out and perform' and be a good wife and be affectionate and happy and not closed into my own brain #for days #if im going to make friends with colleagues I'll have to go out when they invite me and have to reply ro their texts and i cant just go #silent for weeks while i try to negotiate with my thoughts and then reappear once i make the slightest breakthrough #im very tired and sad. i want companionship but i feel like the kind of person i am is not fair for people who would be my companion #vent post #♡alizeh talks♡

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cryptiduni · 1 year ago

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“white mourning.”

#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’#jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice #judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice.#she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry #he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as #he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back.#he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb.#planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco #you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen #his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but #jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control #i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation.#but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse.#i relate to jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late #my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone.#kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon #disco elysium #de fanart #jean vicquemare #disco elysium fanart #jean heron vicquemare #jean posting #illustration #de #artists on tumblr #I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!!#i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings #my little maiu maiu #cryptiduni #my art

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samanthamulder · 1 year ago

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THE X-FILES (1993-2018)

SEASON ELEVEN — It’s time to face the facts, guys. This is the end of the X-Files. But maybe the point wasn’t to find the truth, but to find each other. For no matter where we go in our lives, we will always have the memories of our time together, and no one can take those away.

#🤡 <- me using the silliest quote possible because the silly episode™ is still the most genuinely profound of the whole season #txf #tv #txf11 #the x files #txfedit #tvedit #scifiedit #horroredit #thexfilesnet #.gif #flashing gif tw #*txfrewatch #also hi I know I said i was gonna be absent for a bit longer but I remembered I still needed to post this #and ik its gonna flop whenever but I still dont wanna post on the weekend and it'd be nice to have next week as a little #breathing room before the event? also I don't need to explain myself actually. sooo here we go now and byeee #it's been a lot of fun for me making these during my rewatch and to always see the sweetest comments from some of u <333

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kierreras · 1 year ago

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JIARA WEEK [3/7] -> day three, underrated

expressing love

«i know your whole life, you freak when people get close. and i get it, i don't blame you»

«you're right, i flipped. you know how i'd be»

#jiaraweek2023 #jiara #jj x kie #jj x kiara #jiaraedit #jiarasource #obx #obxedit #obxhub #outer banks #i know it's not very fitting for the theme but i have funny a story #that was last minute originally i wanted to do a kie touches jj to ground him gifset but i got too carried away by the love languages theme #doing only physical touch wasn't enough for me so i decided to do all five love languages and get a great two hour sleep during work week #staying almost the whole night to finish this set is very adult thing to do believe me #oh and the last gif is kind of speculation about jj's ring #for me it's canon that this is his mother's wedding ring and he's going to propose with it so what?#mariestuff #queued

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emeritusterzo · 1 year ago

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Q: Here’s a question for both of you. Who do you feel it has been your greatest opponent so far?

“For me, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, verbally, it’s unfortunately PG Punk.”

Q: Didn’t think you’d bring him up today.

“I didn’t want to. Physically, Bryan Danielson. But I beat them both so…”

[x]

#GOOD MORNING IM INSANE #didn’t want to bring him up like he hadn’t just quoted the pipebomb like he does every week #he’s driving me fucking insane during this whole q&a #cm punk #mjf #cmjf

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eydi-andrius · 4 months ago

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LET ME JUST FUCKING CRY LIKE WTF? PRECISE WISH WAS SUPPOSED TO GIFT ME MISTY RAFAYEL? RIGHT? I GOT HIS NORMAL FIVE STAR MEMORY CARD. I'M FUCKING LIVID. 70 FUCKING PULLS WAS RESET! BYE!

I WILL NEVER SPEND A DIME IN THIS FUCKING GAME ANYMORE. PERIOD.

#love and deepspace #THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME DURING THESE SPECIFIC EVENTS AND I TRIED SO FUCKING HARD TO REPORT IT AND I WAS TOLD THAT IT WAS NORMAL.#LIKE WHAT NORMAL? THE PRECISE WISH WAS NOT WORKING LIKE WTF AM I WORKING FOR THESE WHOLE FUCKING WEEK????????#misty invasion #rafayel #xavier #sylus #zayne #l&ds

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uygfiug · 6 days ago

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hey tumblr people do you think i should be allowed to skip a required talk by the army during lunch? its on my birthday as well :((